Karen Gillan being replaced as the Doctor’s companion for the next season is not news to me. I’ve already known this fact for the past weeks now.

But then I was browsing the IMDB profile of Doctor Who and saw this. And it came to me how in denial I still am about the change. It turns out, I still cannot accept the fact that Amy Pond would be saying goodbye not only to the Doctor, but also to us, avid fans. I cannot even bear to look at the episode title. I don’t even know if this is the legit title but still, it hurts. 

For me, Amy Pond is the best companion the Doctor ever had, well other than Rose of course. That’s a different story because the Doctor fell in love with her. As for Amy, she was the only companion who has grown attached to Doctor since childhood. She was the girl who waited. No matter how much people want to disprove the existence of the Doctor, forcing Amy to believe that he was just an imaginary friend, Amy still refused to forget her Doctor. For years, she waited patiently, hoping that the Doctor would fulfill his promise. Aside from that, she is the companion that brought back the Doctor’s softer side. In the past seasons, the Doctor had been rough and cold to Martha and Donna because of losing Rose. But when Amy came(even though we know that the Doctor is different because of the regeneration), she ignited a spark and saw through all the pain the Doctor has been through. She understood the sadness in his eyes, all the loss that he had to endure. She has been very dedicate to the Doctor from the very beginning.

And that’s why it just saddens me to know that she would be gone. Of course, I know that every companion’s journey has to end and that eventually, they had to leave, but it doesn’t change the fact that it would be a very depressing goodbye. I will miss Amy’s carefree smiles and innocent eyes, her wit and her charm. I will also miss her kindness and bravery. But most of all, I will miss the bond, chemistry and friendship she developed with the Doctor.