Faceless.

I always come at the day’s end

I am the only one for the job

I don’t yearn much

I just want you

.

Unending echoes of agonizing screams

As wild flames enclose every piece of you

Charred and seared, you beg for an escape

But your seconds are over, your clock has stopped

.

Decaying skin of a crumbling soul

In that condition, I reach down to fetch you

And carry you far away 

As your flesh and bones remain

.

For I am Death

And this is how it goes

We meet only once

When your life meets its close.

Dear followers..

This coming Tuesday, my classes would resume and I would have to go back to my dorm tomorrow. Now I guess you would say, “Why is she telling us these stuff like we care?” Well, this post is somewhat like a notice to all of you, my dear followers. Since I would be back to school, that means I would have much less time for pleasure reading for I will probably use it for my academics. And with that, my blog posts won’t be as frequent as this summer. It’s not like I’d be entirely gone, only a little absent. I’ll try my best to post at least once a week so that my blog won’t be stale. 

So uhm, I think what I’m saying here is that I hope you would still stick with me even with the diminished updates. But I know there would always be those who won;t, who will unfollow. But really, it’s okay and I would understand. I just want to inform you of what will happen so you won’t be surprised. :)

The universe has to move forward. Pain and loss—they define us as much as happiness or love. Whether it’s the world or relationship, everything has its time and everything ends.

—Sarah Jane Smith (Doctor Who S02E03 School Reunion)

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This is probably one of the most beautiful lines I’ve ever heard from Doctor Who. Yes, it seems to be a bit gloomy but hey, it’s true. No matter how much we try to deny it, everything must come to an end. Plants wither, people die, things change, memories are forgotten—all of these are inevitable. Because it is the only way to go forth and evolve. Nothing good will happen to mankind if all of us remain stuck at where we are, in our lives, right now. Eventually, we would get tired of all the things around us that it would be the main reason for our destruction. Change might be painful and unacceptable, but it’s the only way we survive the passing of time.

Sorry, it’s happening again. I’m thinking too much. Sometimes, I get so lost in my head when watching shows or reading books. I am wandering off inside my own mind, again.

I’m fascinated, rather than afraid, of death.

Don’t get me wrong, I will not kill myself today. But I am not afraid to die, either. It’s just that I have been intrigued a lot with the idea of death. Is there really an afterlife? Is there really heaven or hell like what most people believe? Or is everything we know of death not true? I mean, what if when we die, that’s all there is. Nothing more. We just crumble to dust and don’t have anything else. What if the concept of soul and body isn’t true? What will happen next? No more feeling, no mind of our own, everything stripped away as our bodies decay. I just have this strong feeling that no matter what we believe in, at the end there nothing else. Sometimes, I am excited to know what will happen to me when I die. I don’t want to die just yet but I am overly curious on what happens to people after their life on earth. I really want to know the truth. But then I also know that it is impossible for me to die and tell everyone about what’s next after that. Jeez, I am so freakishly weird like this.

Things I’ve done for the month-long sem break.

Tomorrow, I’d be going back to my dorm and classes would resume on Tuesday. As usual, I am not the type to go out and party during sem breaks. So here are the list of things I’ve accomplished this past month:

• Watched Season 6 and 7 of Grey’s Anatomy
• Read and finished 7 books out from my to-read list
• Re-watched all 8 Harry Potter movies
• Been to a few book hunts
• Watched The Addams Family, Remember Me, The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac and Amelie

Yes. I’ve buried myself inside the house, in my room. I do not go out much and that’s how I like it. This may seem boring to thers, but I enjoyed how I can waste my time without actually having to spend too much. I’m pretty scarce with allowance during vacations anyway. Haha. 

I’m done trying.

There are officially 11 days left for me to enjoy this vacation.

Damn, I don’t want to go to school yet. And why do we have to go back on June 6, isn’t that too early compared to other colleges? I am so not ready. Plus, I have a stupid schedule and because of that, I might not be able to go home and would be stuck in my dorm. Anyway, it’s not like I’m spending my vacation like other “cool” people do. I don’t go out everyday, going to different places and partying. I have my own way. I am locked up in my room, reading every book I can, watching movies that I’ve downloaded and that’s about it. It would be boring for other people and sometimes, even, lame but who cares? That’s what I enjoy doing and I really need more time. God, I hope that the start of classes would be moved. :|