from Where The Sidewalk Ends by Shel Silverstein
How could I not love this man?

from Where The Sidewalk Ends by Shel Silverstein

How could I not love this man?

"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving, hysterical, naked,
dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix,
angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night.."
Allen Ginsberg (Howl)

Faceless.

I always come at the day’s end

I am the only one for the job

I don’t yearn much

I just want you

.

Unending echoes of agonizing screams

As wild flames enclose every piece of you

Charred and seared, you beg for an escape

But your seconds are over, your clock has stopped

.

Decaying skin of a crumbling soul

In that condition, I reach down to fetch you

And carry you far away 

As your flesh and bones remain

.

For I am Death

And this is how it goes

We meet only once

When your life meets its close.

Maybe in time, someday soon

I’ll learn to let it engulf me whole

All the fiery rage and bitterness 

Hidden and buried beneath

This cold withered weary soul..

Help me break away

From my mind’s unyielding grasp 

And it’s blaring scream..

Since travelling the world

Seems far from reach

I’ll just open some books

And get lost with each..

Leave me alone with these surging emotions

A captive of my head’s boisterous thoughts

Let me bask inside this deranged mind

A slave to my own uncertainties and insecurities..

"

Tick-tock goes the clock
And all the years they fly
Tick-tock and all too soon
You and I must die

Tick-tock goes the clock
He cradled her and he rocked her
Tick-tock goes the clock
Even for the Doctor

Tick-tock goes the clock
And what now shall we play?
Tick-tock goes the clock
Now summer’s gone away

Tick-tock goes the clock
And all the years they fly
Tick-tock and all too soon
Your love will surely die

Tick-tock goes the clock
He cradled and he rocked her
Tick-tock goes the clock
‘Til River kills the Doctor

"
Doctor Who S06E13: The Wedding of River Song
"

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it “Chops”
because that was the name of his dog

And that’s what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X’s

and he had to ask his father what the X’s meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it “Autumn”

because that was the name of the season
And that’s what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint

And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.


Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it “Innocence: A Question”
because that was the question about his girl
And that’s what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle’s Creed went

And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That’s why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem

And he called it “Absolutely Nothing”
Because that’s what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn’t think

he could reach the kitchen.

"
Stephen Chbosky (The Perks of Being a Wallflower)

Awakening.

In the midst of a peaceful night

Underneath the glorious light

Of bright glimmering stars

Scattered in the vast purple sky

You turned you face to mine

And from your lips escaped a three-word phrase

A soft whisper that made its way

To unknown depths of my soul

Slowly our heads lean in, closer and closer

Our lips almost collided

But with a jolt, my eyes unfold

To a blazing morning light..

"Evil his heart, but honey-sweet his tongue,
No truth in him, the rogue. He is cruel in his play.
Small are his hands, yet his arrows fly far as death.
Touch not his treacherous gift, they are dipped in fire."
Unknown Poet (On the lesser god: Eros)

Lost in a dream.

Some dream of adventures, far off reality

Others dream of love, so great and unyielding

Another few might dream of death

To just be done with this ever exhausting race

But I, I dream of something else

I long for the world to turn 

To erase tears and stick on smiles

In each and everyone’s crumbling soul

Wouldn’t it be a such a bliss

Turning every misery into heap of hope?

To somehow extract the remaining light

Hidden in this cold, cruel world? 

Staring

Into the midnight sky,

starlight defeated by

the scream of neon,

Truth is hard to discern.

Does it sparkle?

Does it burn?

If a weightless moment

transcends

the gravity of time,

what proof is there

of its existence?

Does it infuse every

tick of the clock,

each blink of an eye?

Which is harder to bear?

Reality or a lie?

The Sky Is Everywhere by Jandy Nelson.

It’s been quite a while since I made a book review. Pardon me for my lack of time due to school work. And since it’s vacation, I finally had the chance to knock off some books from my to-read list. Here’s one good book I finished a while ago.

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What do you do when your sister, the closest relative you have, dies? How can you survive, when you believed in a promise that was shattered with her sudden death? A promise that led you to believe that she will never leave you like your mother did. How do you deal with the pain and the loss?

Lennine Walker is the typical younger sister. Unlike Bailey, the older one, Lennie is the companion pony, the one in the sidelines. She was the boring band geek clarinet player. She was never the center of attraction. That spot was solely for Bailey, the outgoing one, the actress, the sister who’s full of life. That is, until one unfortunate day when suddenly, it all ends for the older sister.

Now, although the two maybe opposites, they were quite close. Very close indeed, due to them being abandoned by their mother. Lennie and Bailey do not know much about their mother excpet for the fact that she is a wanderer. And so, as they were left to grow with only their Gram and Uncle Big, they don’t have anyone to turn to but each other. So how was Lennie supposed to go on with her life without her big sister, Bailey, who was always there for her, the one who knows what to do?

And in the picture comes Toby and Joe. Toby was Bailey’s boyfriend. Like Lennie, he was enveloped with such grief due to Bailey’s death. Toby was the boy who understands Lennie’s sorrows and struggles. To Lennie, Toby is the only one who she can share her emotions with. But up to what extent? And then there is Joe, the new boy at school. This is the charming one, the boy with sunshine written all over his face. The guy every girl wants to be with, the talented musician. The guy responsible for Lennie’s heart to pound so hard it might burst. Joe was the one who can make Lennie forget about all the sadness in her heart with just one blissful kiss.

And so the story goes. Just like any other love triangles, Lennie was torn between Toby and Joe. She was certain that she is in love Joe. He sends her reeling the sky and beyond with every touch and kiss. His music connected with hers. The passionate guitarist and the soulful clarinetist. The perfect match. Through him, Lennie can bury all the memories of Bailey, even for a while. But then there was Toby, who needs her, the guy who craves her company. He is the one person who exactly knows how big an impact Bailey’s death was. They found memories of Bailey in each other. Lennie was drawn to him due to sympathy and loneliness. But there would always be that big guilt looming over her everytime that they are together. So really, who should she choose?

I also love the fact that the book was sprinkled with a dash of poetry in every other chapter. Each chapter ends with a handwritten poem by Lennie found in random places. In the book, Lennie is the silent type. She doesn’t easily share what she feels to others. Instead, she writes it down, anywhere, and just throw it away in random weird places. It may be on a takeaway cup, a tissue, a newspaper, anywhere. I think that it is her way of letting her emotions out.

The Sky Is Everywhere is not the typical sad book. Yes, it deals with grieving and loss, but not with the tear-jerking, too depressive manner. In fact, there are a lot of humorous exchange between the characters. To me, it was a very honest interpretation of coping. Nelson wrote in a way that readers could see and feel how the characters were so torn about lamenting and moving on with life. In this book, we can see different views on how people manage with grief. It was a good read since the main character isn’t the perfect saint. In her journey of sorrow, she makes mistakes and fails to see what is right. But then with every mistake comes the realization of how wrong she was. The book really shows how a teenage girl grows as she comes face to face with the fact that one of the closest person to her heart had gone away. The readers get to laugh, mourn, cry and fall in love just like the characters. It is written simply and is a very easy read. Overall, I would give it a 4/5.