Unpopular Opinion: I despise book-to-movie adaptations.

The Perks of Being A Wallflower movie is coming out soon and now people are clamoring to get their copies of the book so that they can be part of the fandom. And you know what I think? “Ugh, not again.” Ever since the production for the movie started, a lot of people became suddenly interested with the book. I don’t know if it’s because the movie stars Logan Lerman and Emma Watson or they really are interested in the book, but nonetheless, from what I can remember, there weren’t this much people who gave a rat’s ass on this book before. I even had a hard time looking for a copy and had to order mine. Now the books are just displayed out there in every bookstore I know.

Although most book lovers I know are crazed when their favorite literary pieces come to life in movies, I can’t help but feel irritated about it. I know page-to-screen adaptation is very helpful in terms of promotional aspects for the books, but then when you come to think of it, somehow, the reason behind wanting to read these books becomes a bit more superficial.

First of all, I hate the fact that some people just buy and read the books for the sake of being “in”. I know a lot of people from my school who bought The Hunger Games trilogy when the movie came out. Well, it’s not a bad thing to want to know more about the story, but what’s bothering me is that they use the books as some fashion statement of sorts, bringing them wherever or taking pictures with captions saying how much they love the series, when in fact, they haven’t even touch a single book before that. Maybe I am being selfish or what, but I feel that the value of these precious books decreases as they are regarded as a fad or a trend.

Second, I also notice that some people prefer the characters who were portrayed by “beautiful” actors in their movie counterparts. I can say this much is true with Never Let Me Go, with Andrew Garfield playing the role of Tommy. And who can forget the obsessed moms who swooned crazily over Edward Cullen played by Robert Pattinson? No matter how bad the books are, people bought it for the sake of proving how much a fan they are of their books, without actually reading deeper and understanding the stories.

Third is that some people don’t even bother reading the books because watching the movie is much easier. And that makes me angry because I think it’s unfair for the authors how people neglect the original plot and are contented with what’s in the film. Even the Harry Potter films are nothing compared to the books. I for one, is a huge fan and was so disappointed when my favorite parts from the book were cut from the movie. Book-to-movie adaptations makes people lazier. Plus, there are some who claim to be total fans without even opening the book version of the movies they so dearly love. I have this friend who was so deeply moved by the ending My Sister’s Keeper and yet she was so surprised and upset when I told her that it was different and the exact opposite what happened the one in the book.

Lastly, also the top reason I hate book-to-movie adaptations, is that these films ruin the freedom that their book counterparts give me. Without the movie, my mind is free to imagine how the characters and settings look. I can picture every single detail as described in the authors’ words the way I want them to appear in my head. But with the movies casting the roles of my favorite characters into various different artists, I feel that my imagination was caged into a box I couldn’t escape. Suddenly, whenever I read the books again, all I could see are the faces of the actors who portrayed them. Peeta is Josh Hutcherson who isn’t actually blond and fit the description for Peeta. Percy is Logan Lerman even if Percy is supposed to be a 12-year old kid. I cannot break the connection and with that, I feel frustrated because for me, the purpose of these books is to let my mind wander off into distant places, depending on how I understand them. And what these movies do is to rob me off that privilege and leave me stuck with what they have set for their viewers.

All those bookstores out there with the Fifty Shades trilogy displayed at their entrances, I hope you know that a lot of minors are being overly curious about that series. And you know what? IT IS NOT A GOOD THING. If their parents knew about the content of those books, I cannot even imagine how they would react. Please be responsible promoters. Those are very graphic erotic books which are supposed to be in the adult section, not splayed all over as a center of attraction. Call me a hater, or whatever, but I think it’s really inappropriate. And I really do not like the books at all. I even saw a young girl of about 12 or 13 years of age picking one copy. GAWD. :|

PBB Teen Edition 4 is freaking hilarious. One big fucking joke. Haha. Everyone in there has some serious issues. One is a 13 year-old girl who says she already had 4 boyfriends. One girl is acting like bossy bitch, already picking fight with another. I mean, they’re not even one week in. All the girls are so irritating, screaming and giggling their heads off. As for the boys, one is acting like every girl is in attracted to him. With all these, it’s no wonder that people look down at teenagers. They are just plain proof that the teenagers in this generation are hopeless. 

Yes, you’ll say I’m a pathetic person ranting about stuff when I could have just ignored it. That I don’t respect other people’s personality or whatever. That I should not look down on my fellow Filipinos. But what can I do? It’s very obvious how disappointing these teenager are. I laugh at how shallow and stupid they act. I know that I’m not perfect myself, but I can say that I am not simple-minded. And what, I should be proud that these people represent our generation? Sorry, but that’s very unlikely. 

As to why I watch the show even if it annoys be, I won’t try to give petty excuses. It’s simple: I am curious. I wanted to know what the big fuss was about and why it’s such a big hit. And so I watched the show. But I don’t think I will for the next weeks to come. If this is how it will go for the whole edition, why would I even bother with it?

You’re impossible.

Get over yourself. It’s been three years. I’m over you. We are over. Suddenly talking to you isn’t a sign of me showing interest again. For fuck’s sake, all I did was congratulate you on your graduation. Don’t dig too deep. I’m not hoping to be with you again. Your so full of yourself that I wonder why I fell for you before. You’ve obviously changed. Or I guess I’m just some crazy immature girl back then, in love with a total asshole. You don’t have that effect on me anymore. If anything, you disgust me by being such an arrogant egotistic bastard that you are now. So please, fuck off. You’re making a complete idiot of yourself by telling your friends that I am flirting with you again.  

Family issues.

I usually post about how much I miss being at home since I spend weeks at my dorm without going home during weekends. But now that I am here, at my own house, I secretly wish that I could go back and spend my time at my dorm. Why? Because I am so uncomfortable with the atmosphere here. Everyone’s fighting and bickering. And then the problems. Every morning I wake up to the voice of my mom talking to my uncle or my aunt about their financial problems. I know that it is a must to help your relatives in times of need, but I just think it’s too much. They always turn to my mom as if she’s someone who shits money anytime she wants to. I can see the stress it gives her. And to think that she just got out of the hospital after a week-long suffering due to cervical disc problems. And that week she spent in the hospital isn’t cheap. Although my mom didn’t want me to know, I saw the bills. It was about 120,000 pesos. That was so costly. And what, they still expect my mom to give them money to pay for their own bills? I am not being selfish here. I am just stating the fact that we aren’t that rich. We just have enough. And sometimes, I get so mad because I don’t get why my relatives aren’t looking for their own jobs. What, do they think that my mom can sustain their needs forever? I think it’s so unfair. My mom is working hard not only for our family but also for two more. Maybe that’s the reason why she’s so stress and prone to such illness. I pity her so, but I do not know how to help. 

I don’t know. I just don’t feel good whenever I’m here. It’s like being in a hole of desperation and negative emotions. I just want to get away.

Now, who says Physical Therapists are just massuers?

See this book? This is one of our many books for PT. It’s three inches thick and you know what else? We need to study this whole book for our final exams. THE WHOLE BOOK. Not just a few chapters but the entire book. There a total of 276 special tests for patient assessment that are included in the book. And we have to memorize them all by heart for the written and practical exams. And did I metion, this is for just one subject. I am not kidding.

So you see, branding us as people who just do massages is quite insulting. We study so hard that we barely have time to sleep. We have Anatomy, Physiology, Kinesiology, Neuroanatomy and several other subjects that are taught in medicine, and yet we are considered as massuers. Physical therapists are not massage therapists. There’s a huge difference between those two. So before you talk about us as people who just poke and massage other people’s body, please get your facts right. We don’t go through such hardships in studying just so you can degrade us like that. Again, it’s very insulting and belittling.

Sometimes, a girl can only take so much insults, until she actually burst.

SERIOUSLY, I’VE HAD ENOUGH WITH ALL THE BULLYING. FAT. UGLY. WORTHLESS. YES I HAVE HEARD OF THOSE BEFORE. YOU ARE NOT THE FIRST ONE TO TELL ME THAT. I’VE HAD ENOUGH WITH ALL THIS BULLSHIT YOU PEOPLE GIVE ME. I ALREADY FEEL BAD ABOUT MYSELF. WHY MAKE IT SO MUCH WORSE WITH ALL YOUR HARSH WORDS?! JUST A JOKE? IS THAT SO? WELL IT’S NOT FUNNY. NOT TO ME, ANYWAY. IT’S VERY MUCH FRUSTRATING. I WANT TO BE MAD AND SHOUT BACK BUT THAT WOULD ONLY MAKE THINGS WORSE. DO YOU KNOW THE FEELING WHEN YOU FEEL SO HURT BUT YOU CANNOT DO ANYTHING BUT LAUGH IT OFF JUST SO YOU WON’T BE CALLED A TOUCHY SORE LOSER. GOD, YOU DON’T KNOW HOW IT SUCKS TO LAUGH AT JOKES DIRECTED TO YOUR OWN SELF. I WANT IT ALL TO BE OVER. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TELL MYSELF TO IGNORE THE WORDS OTHER PEOPLE SAY, I JUST CANNOT FOOL MYSELF INTO THINKING THAT IT’S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. BECAUSE IT WON’T. IT WILL NEVER BE. SHIT, I AM SO MAD AND SAD AND HURT AT THE SAME TIME, I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL ANYMORE. I JUST CANNOT KEEP IT ALL TO MYSELF THIS TIME. AND THEN YOU WOULD WONDER WHY I AM BEING SO DISTANT WITH THE GROUP, CALLING ME A LONER AND STUFF LIKE THAT. HUH. WELL GET THIS, IT’S ACTUALLY BECAUSE OF HOW YOU TREAT ME. IT’S LIKE I’M A BIG JOKE TO YOU. OH, THERE’S A PUN IN THAT, RIGHT? ME, A BIG JOKE. GET IT? BIG?

God, skinny bitches complaining about getting fat are so upsetting.

I think it’s really annoying. I mean, look at yourselves! Bones are sticking out of your body and yet you say that you are fat? I could accept it if you complain about gaining weight because that’s different from being fat. Sometimes, it’s actually healthier to put on a little bit of weight especially when they are underweight. But really, with legs just the size of my arms and going on about being as big as a whale is just insulting to me.

I know that I am fat. Yes, I can admit that because I am really clinically overweight. I’ve had more than a fair share of insults and name-calling because of my body. And it really sucks. But I really don’t want to lose weight just to satisfy their standards. And so that’s why I get so irritated with skinny girls acting like their world has turned upside down because of an additional pound or two. Maybe if they do it when I’m not around, it’s fine. But to complain in front of my face about wanting to diet just because they seem to look bigger, just makes me so angry. Maybe I have issues or something, but sometimes, I just want to poke their bones and tell them how their bodies are fine they way it is and that they do not look fat and all those bullshit they are complaining about.

So much for being my friends.

I said that I am not feeling well. That I might be down with a fever. But what did you do? You asked me if it’s true or if I’m just faking it. You accused me of being a killjoy. Wow. What a nice way to treat a friend who’s sick. And then what? When I excused myself to go to my room and finally have my rest, you mock me? Said that I’m pretending. Ha. Really great, guys. And you just believed me when you finally had the chance to grab me and felt that I am burning like hell. Now, you go and try to be gentle and act like you care. Well, that’s just utter bullshit. I never knew that you could be like that. I felt so bad and angry. The way you act just made me feel much worse.

What do I do now??

There are only 3 days left of our vacation. Minus one day for me because I would be going back to my dorm on the 2nd. Damn, I am so not ready yet. I just started with Doctor Who and still have a pile of to-read books at my bedside. I need more time. And also, I am not ready to face tons of school works just yet. I am perfectly fine with this bum life of no stress and unlimited sleeping time. My body clock isn’t even fixed yet. How am I supposed to wake up early when at 7am, I just about to sleep? Oh shit. I really really do not want classes to resume yet. :(

Grabe, sobrang galing mo pag may kailangan ka.

Kinakausap mo ko ngayon kasi gusto mo ng tulong. Pag okay ka, di mo ko maalala. Haha. PUTANGINA MO PO.

My God, Boy Abunda.

Seriously, you are the interviewer. You’re the one who’s supposed to ask questions and let your guest answer. You are interviewing NICHOLAS SPARKS, for God’s sake!!! Let him speak! Don’t override his words. There are so much things you could ask him and you ask when’s the best time for sex?? What the hell. And then yeah, why do you talk so much? Half the time, it’s you who’s speaking not the one you’re interviewing. It’s supposed to be the other way around. Why cut him off while he’s still speaking? That is so disrespectful. I know you need to follow up after he answers your question, but your follow up is way longer than his answers. Do you know what’s the point of an interview? To know more about your guest. Not the interviewer. Damn. I am mad. Sorry, but I am really huge fan of Nicholas Sparks.