Let’s just keep pretending that this is what we want. After all, this world is so used to our lies.
Little story on how I got my copy of Allegiant
- *enters bookstore*
- Me: Excuse me, do you have Allegiant by Veronica Roth?
- Bookseller: Sorry, all we have it the box set, the stand-alones haven't arrived yet.
- Me: *dumbfounded* Really? That's too bad. When are the stand-alones going to be available?
- Bookseller: I'm afraid, I'm not sure.
- Me: Okay. :(
- ---so I just roamed around the store in search of another good book to buy & even talked to the customer service asking about the specs of the Kobo Arc eReader. And then, when I was about to go out of the bookstore, I saw a crew unloading a box of, guess what.. Allegiant! So I ran up to the guy.--
- Me: UHM. EXCUSE ME, are these the stand-alone?
- Guy: Yes, they just arrived now.
- Me: Can I get one, I mean buy one?!
- Guy: Sure, but we still have to cover it.
- Me: Oh please, no need! This is fine.
- Guy: You're that excited, huh?
- Me: You don't know how much.
- Guy: Okay, then. Here you go. *hands me a copy while shaking his head*
- Me: Thank you so much!!
- --I guess he thinks I'm crazy, but I don't really care. I am just so glad and lucky that day. Good thing I chose to stay longer and roam around the bookstore.
Escape is not a choice
It is coming, unknowingly, and fast
It is lurking behind the shadows of weakness
Beneath the blankets of grief
Hidden within each of our fearful doubts
It is what ruins us all
And the loss of willingness to live
The worst kinds of monsters
Inside every one of us
That threatens to take over
And swallow us whole
How often do you hear lines that goes along like this: “God, you are one brilliant intelligent woman who isn’t afraid of voicing out what you believe is true and standing up for your rights. You string together words like lyrics to perfect melody with essence that bring out true heart and sincerity. I just think I am falling for that kind of amazing, spectacular thinking.”
Of course it’s a one in a million thing. Like always, this only usually happen in books, or movies, or in any other make-believe and made-up media. But in real life, how often do people take genius, intelligent and smart over hot, sexy, and beautiful? I am not saying that these things could not exist altogether, but let’s face it. How many people are more attracted to what’s inside than what could be found superficially?
Well that’s just the thing isn’t it? We live in a world wherein we need to be blinded in order to truly see. Which is just awfully sad because we already are molded in such a way that prevent us to see deeper. All of us have this certain notion of beautiful and yet, do we even try to find it in other places? We look at our list and check our preference if this person fit our categories. Would that really make us happy? For some, it might.
But then how do we even find real treasure if we only seek it in golden, towering palaces and not thrive and search underground, in old forgotten places? We try to find the perfect one from our own misguided selection, but do we ever try to dig up those who did not qualify our standards? We’ll never know. Since we don’t usually try.
- -As I was headed outside-
- Mom: Where are you going?
- Me: Full Booked, the bookstore in Alabang.
- Mom: Who are you going with?
- Me: No one. I'm by myself.
- Mom: What are going to do there alone? Isn't it boring to go out alone?
- Me: ...
- In my head: Oh mom, you don't understand just how much better it is to roam around a huge bookstore alone, with no one bugging me.
Things that MAY happen when you read in bed.
- 1: As you start falling asleep, your book falls on your face. (Beware of hardcovers and massive paperbacks)
- 2: You fall asleep mid-sentence.
- 3: You don't sleep until late, or at all.
- 4: You ignore the fact that you have school/work in the morning.
- 5: The neighbors may think you're a vampire, since your light is on throughout the night.
- 6: You tell yourself, one more page, one more chapter, but then feel oddly sad when you come to the end.
- 7: Likewise, you might feel like you finally found meaning in your life again after finally finishing that book.
- 8: Text messages/phone calls from friends go unnoticed until morning.
- 9: If you share a bed with someone...well, maybe you should avoid doing those weird voices you do while reading, and maybe the outbursts of emotions, too.
- 10: Your parents might walk into your bedroom to ask you, "What the hell that racket is."
- 11: Decide that sleep does not exist when you have no school/work the next day. Hey, it's summer, enjoy it!
- That moment when all of these applies to me except for #9.
- Forever alone.
- WITH BOOKS.
- Me: Mom, look! *points on laptop screen* this is the Kindle Fire I'm talking about!
- Mom: How do you purchase one?
- Me: Paypal, you know, uhm. By using credit cards.
- Mom: Oh I see.
- --browse the net some more--
- Me: Mom look at this online store! It sells Doctor Who merch!
- Mom: I am guessing you are dying to buy one.
- Me: Oh yessss. And I saw some Harry Potter replica's too. Oooh I want to have those!!
- Me: Sadly, I don't have a credit card. Ugh.
- Mom: You know, I don't think you be getting one soon.
- Me: Why???
- Mom: Look at all those things you want to buy online. You'll probably max it out in a week.
- Me: Don't you trust my self-restraint?
- Mom: What self-restraint are you talking about? Just looking at your bookshelves is enough proof that your self-restraint doesn't exist.
- Me: Well, can I use yours? I'll pay you.
- Mom: Not a chance.
- Mom: Hoarder.
- Me: ...
- I GOT OWNED BY MY MOM. HAHAHA. Oh well.